When you know you’re done…

Well, here we go again. Round 3.

The sad part is that I believed in you this time. I had nothing left but to rebuild that trust I had with you. The trust that you originally smashed to pieces for me. You told me I was the one giving up, but despite my intuition, I still gave it a chance. I still allowed you in my life. You challenged me by telling me that I’m the one walking away and giving up on this, but let’s face it… what am I really giving up? Another friend? Someone to help me with the daily grind? Someone who can afford to buy me a fancy laptop? Is that what I’m really sacrificing from “walking away”? BUT of course… like a trooper, I stuck around for another round. Who are you to tell me that I’m the one giving up. Dumb.

Friendships come and go, but I’ve never had one cut me this deep.

The first time, was heartbreaking and I’m not going to lie, it shook me to the core. The second time was the most painful. This time, I’m not surprised.

Sadly I’m not surprised. I’ve told you before that there are consequences to your actions, you felt threatened. Why though? Because you’re not getting your cake and eating it too? If this friendship is something that you say you care about, then prove it.

This time around – I can’t even cry about it anymore, because I knew that if I came back for another round, it would be my choosing. I knew that I would have to deal with whatever happens because I chose my destiny. Well, that’s it. I’m done.

I’m done with the lies.

I’m done with feeling insecure.

I’m done with the bullshit that you feed me.

I’m done with someone who blatantly doesn’t care about my feelings.

When someone tells you that you’re the one who changed their life… but they continue to  “unknowingly” hurt you… GET OUT! Actions speak louder than words. I repeat… ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.

I’m not sure if this is even salvageable anymore to be honest. I have no more tears left to cry, so that must mean something. What sucks is that things just fall in my lap, like the universe is telling me something but I chose to ignore. Well, universe… you win.

And for the record, I didn’t give up…. you lied.

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